Thursday, May 31, 2007

THE DISCLAIMER STUFF

Unfortunately on every blog there's always some confusion about what's ok to post and what isn't. So to help clear this up, here are some rules to follow:

Keep in mind that talking about PTSD and related issues is like walking a tightrope. You want to be open and honest to be able to start healing. But you also have to be aware of the potential effect of your words on other survivors. Everybody has a different story and is at a different point in healing. The point here is, make what you say count overall.

PTSD is not a curse, a plague or something that you ask for. It's never somebody's fault. Instead, it's a coping mechanism that everyone has that's designed to help them survive. Please keep that in mind.

ANY AND ALL RACIST, HOMOPHOBIC OR ABUSIVE CONTENT WILL BE DELETED. THEN YOU'LL BE DELETED TOO.

Since I am in charge, I reserve the right to edit and delete where necessary. That being said, I'd really prefer to let people post and not have to police here 24/7. But the reality is it has to be done. You help me and I'll help you.

Have a nice day :).

Let's Talk

HI and welcome to the first of what I hope is many posts. I've looked all over the Net. And I have yet to find a central blog where PTSD victims/survivors worldwide can meet and talk freely. In my experience, most people don't know what PTSD means, are too busy to stop and think about it. And just don't care. It's the old out-of-sight-out-of-mind thing. So here's to hoping that this will in some small way help to change things. This blog will contain strong language and maybe controversial ideas to some people. But that's all right. The idea to be open, honest and then from that you start to heal.

A little about me. I've had severe PTSD for 35 years (due to ongoing childhood sexual abuse). I've lost jobs, relationships and friends. My family has disowned me because I'm "handicapped" and they can't be bothered with weird and freaky s**t from me. And, it's YOUR fault. Nobody gives a f**k about your thoughts, feelings, ideas and concerns. Don't be so f*****g sensitive. You'll never survive.

Oh, ok. So it's my fault. Getting repeatedly raped is fun. It's what I asked for. So now just go away and deal with it? I feel like my family is long gone. The rare times when we have really superficial "conversations", it always leaves me thinking, why did I just waste ten minutes on the phone with this person? The truth is it'll never change. Call it stupid f*****g pride or whatever. But as for me, my days as being the family peacmaker are over. So now you no longer have the right to tell me it's my fault and then say, sleezy ungrateful bastard son. After all the s**t we've done for you. This is how you show respect? YOU WERE NEVER THERE FOR ME. If you can't at least fake basic respect for me as a human being (if nothing else), then f**k off. I have better things to do with my time.

This blog is for any and all PTSD victims/survivors. Anybody is free to link to this site, post comments, etc. Now, PLEAE READ THIS: Be aware and respectful of others on this blog. You ARE responsible for what you write.

More later on,
jpnhito