Finally a little relief for a change from really bad dissociating. Catching up on my sleep helped some. But other stuff still makes things really difficult. SEVERE anger at various people that you thought would be there for you. But instead can't be bothered with you and just say, it's YOUR fault. So go away. It makes it difficult to trust people many times. But one good thing: I will NEVER end up like these a******s that treated me like s**t.
You can't go back and change what's happened. On the other hand the reality of how severe PTSD has been is a real burden. Other survivors say that you will get thru it all. But in the middle of a bad day that's hard to keep in mind.